amanduhloo

2010-07-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

Thanks alot,

imissyoudear,

2010-07-07T21:24:00.000+08:00

SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN!
Can't wait for the match later (:

2010-07-03T19:59:00.001+08:00

Went to East coast on 26th June (:
Had mad loads of fun (:
Went cycling too and had my sunrise from Coffee Bean (L)

Reached home at like 12plus am?
Haha.

Went Woodlands library to do project with wei ling and cam whored! (:
Saw Zenas,
He was with Ying Jie and Ming Jie!
Haha.

Nothing much le,
Tomorrow is Youth Alpha le! :D

Dreams,

2010-06-22T17:01:00.002+08:00

I had a dream,
I dreamt that the whole of Kranji Sec was at an open field sleeping on mattresses with blankets.
And I received an sms from Ng Jing Xiang saying he's being chased by a clown that looks like joker and chucky combined.
And he ran past me with the clown behind chasing after him.
I wanted to throw my shoe at the clown but it hit him at his groin! '
Then me and Lucia Lim just can't stop laughing! :D

This is like the most awesomest dream I've ever had :D

Awesome,

2010-06-20T20:08:00.002+08:00

Got this weird thing going on facebook! Haha. And this is what i wrote :)

Mah Jun Chuan

Hey JC! I like you for being so good to me, always accompanying me home, always listening to my stupid stories.
I like you for lending me your shoulders when I needed it.
I like you for wiping off my tears whenever I was crying.
I like you for telling me unelievable stuffs.
I like you for messaging and calling me every...day no fail :)
I like you for doing so much for me and yet still want to do more.
I like you for who you are.
I like you for using me as a motivation to study.
I like you for always cheering me up somehow (:
I like you for letting me box you.
I like you for letting me punch you.
I like you for letting me tickle you.
Most of all, i like you for you are BabiPenguin ♥
I also like you because you always ask me to smile.
I like you because you always keep your promises,
I like you because you like to talk about everything so everything will be fine.
I like you for always helping solve my problems.
I like you for always making sure I'm okay.
I like you for always caring for me :)
I like you for always being there, no fail.
I like you for being my 7-11! :D
I like you for carrying my stuff for me :)
I like you for always walking me home.
I like you for getting to know me better and better.
I like you for everything you do.
I like you for making sure I am happy :)
I like you for liking me too :)

and this is what he wrote back:)

i like u coz ur always there wen i needed u.i like u coz u mean wad u said. i like u coz u've been e best friend i've ever had.i like u coz u gave me motivation to study.i like u coz u always pei me.i like u coz u always msg me every second u're awakei like u for calling me.i like u for letting me walk u home .i like u... for letting me help u carry stuff.i like u for tickling me.i like u for always laugh n smile:)i like u for cheering me up by laughing for no reason dan can't stop aft dat.i like u for being babi panda♥

Sheron Quck Wei Ling

Yo! I like you for who you are. A crazy girl. I like you for sitting beside me in class. I like you for singing ramdom songs, especially those that made me memorise stuffs :) I like you for tugging my sleeves and calling me Jieh Jieh! :D I like you for always sleeping in class with me :) I like you for always listening... to my stupid stories. I like you for pei-ing me. I like you for everything you do :)

and this is what she wrote :)

I like you cause you sit beside me and i can irritate you with my 'jiejiejiejiejiejie'!
I like you cause you always camwhore with me :)
I like you cause we're going to be classmates for 4 years & you are from my primary school :)
I like you for accompanying me to go toilet everytime & walk around the school.
I like you for... cheering me up when im sad!
Loveyou for who you are!

Casper Chew

Hello Hello :) I like you for being so nice. Still remember last year i was alone in class and Kam Ho pei-ed me after awhile. You came too and just started talking to me and we talk talk talk until la ji :) Haha. I like you for being so loyal to your friends :) Keep it on Casper Chew :)

and this is what he wrote :)

Amanda E'ffervescence Love'Drunk I like you becuz you say I very nice. I like you becuz you very friendly. I like you becuz you talk about french kiss with me. I like you becuz you're Amanda.

So awesome :)

Whatever,

2010-06-17T19:16:00.002+08:00

I thought you were different,
I trusted you,
I thought you meant forever,
But I guess I was wrong.

You wouldn't say something if you didn't thought of it.
And you said it out.
If you want that to happen so much,
I'll leave.
Just tell me.

I'm fine.

And to Someone,
I really can't stand it,
Do you always have to say things that hurts me?
I don't get it.

Somethings you don't have to say it out,
You can keep it inside what.
Why must always say the two of us indirectly in a direct manner?
I don't get it.

You just can't stand seeing me not get mad is it?
I was so mad,
I could kill someone with my anger.
And you had to do it during he trip and ruin my whole trip.
Why?

Can't wait,

2010-06-13T17:58:00.002+08:00

Tonight I'm going to sleep over at Patrizha's and tomorrow I won't be in Singapore le! So if I don't reply your messages don't be shocked or sad :)
And also can't wait!
M is going too :)
Today went to Library and met M :)
Hehe.
Ate chicken chunks and also chocolate truffle :)
Damn nice :)

I miss you,

2010-06-11T13:20:00.003+08:00

Pictures here now (:
Now at Singapore Poly (:
Finished project early so now I'm using the internet (:
Here with Kar Ying, Lucia, Wei En, Ngai Yan, Duncan, Xin Yi, Angeline, Stabley and Ren Siang (:

{ Love the bangs }

IMY Baby,

2010-06-08T22:06:00.003+08:00

{ I'm alone, all alone }

Tomorrow is CCA Camp!
Excited but also sad :(
I can't meet M tomorrow at all :(
First time in such a long time I can't meet M for a day :(
Gosh,
I'm almost crying while typing this :(

Sighs,
At least I took a lot of pictures with M today :)
Went to ICA and did my I/C! :D
But only after July 20th then can collect :(

Went to watch Shrek also :)
Hehe.
With Eric and his girl.
Audrey I think.
LOL. Made two new friends from M :)

Gone all gone,

2010-06-05T22:51:00.001+08:00

Your imperfections are what makes you perfect, it's because I love you for who you are not what you are :)

To X, Sorry.

Love's in the air,

2010-05-30T16:43:00.003+08:00

{ Love's in the air }

Err. Went to Ikea on 27th May :D
Awesome :D
Saw loads of things and played with like every piece of furniture :D
Then went to Queensway and bought FBTs :D
FBT Curve Cut Gold&Silver
FBT Singlet White&Red :D

AWESOME :D

Then saw a damn nice jacket!
But not enough money :(
So went back on 28th May and bought the jacket :D

29th May went to CG.
Played "BANG!" and "Saboteur"
Damn epic can.
Because I was sending Patrizha out of Republic Poly.
Then I chose my character card for "BANG!" le.
Then I didn't expect them to play without me.
Still got worse.
5 mins after I walked out of the group,
I received a call from Jun Chuan.
Guess what he told me!

I'M DEAD! :(

LOL.
And I was a deputy sheriff so I supposed to protect the sheriff.
And when I went back,
I realised it was Ryan that killed me.
Then guess his role.
Deputy Sheriff!

LOL.
He killed his own partner luhh! :(
Stupid Ryan :(

I love you,

2010-05-25T20:15:00.003+08:00

{ The spaces in between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly }

Nothing much.
Just want to say something.

M,
I don't deserve your love.
You treat me like gold and I treat you like shit.
I know you don't blame me but I blame myself for that.
We quarreled over this,
Cried over this.
But I still got to say,
I'm not worth it.
I'm not worth,
You tears,
Your love,
Your care,
Your everything.

You can make me happy,
I know it.
Because you already did.
It's my problem now.
I can't be happy even if I tried so hard.
I know happiness is a choice.
I am happy.
Just that when I'm sad,
You can't do much to cheer me up.

But the way you treat me,
The way you love me.
I know all this is real.
Yet I can't do the same.
You can love me 100%,
Yet no matter how hard I try it is only 99% compared to yours.

All I want to say now is,
Don't treat me too well.
I don't know if I can take it,
I don't know what I will do.
But I know that I will try my best to love you as much as I can,
Forever is your promise to me,
Keep it.
For I will be keeping mine.

I Love You,

Swensen's,

2010-05-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

Went crystal jade for family lunch :D
Then headed to swensens with Germaine,Eve,Jun Chuan,Zenas,Marcus,David,Ryan,Ian and Wei Sheng :D
Had mad awesome fun :D

Then went out with Zenas,Marcus,David,Jun Chuan and Eve :D
Wanted to go play pool at Woodlands,
But headed to Yishun Safra instead :D

Then dinner-ed and walked home with M :D
Love the times with M!! :D

Navy Open House 2010,

2010-05-21T22:15:00.020+08:00

NAVY OPEN HOUSE 2010!
It was a moment to spam photos luhh! :D
LOL
Had school til recess then no lessons le.
Checked PPR marks,
Damn sad with my marks.
Went toilet and kinda broke down.
:'(

Nevermind.
Had lunch with Clique,
Then took bus to Changi Naval Base.
Trip damn long.
1h plus!

Then reach le went on the biggest ship in the Navy.
IDK what is it.
Then walked around and spammed photos with Wei Ling
The ship super nice :D
Best is the FCU ride :D
Got splashed by seawater though :(
Seawater damn salty,
Very delicious :)
LOL

Then walked somemore and camwhore somemore :D
Finish the tour then is free and easy,
So me and WeiLing went to look for BALLOONS! :D
And had ice-cream too :D
Nice nice :D

Then we found the balloons!! :D
At the Family&Fun Zone :D
Finally got air-con.
Had a henna done on my hand
Want know what I drew?
Look for my hand :D

Then suppose to reach school at 7 de.
But we only left the place like at 7.30 -.-
Reached school and met M :D
Dinner-ed together and met Patrizha to pass her track pants.
Damn jealous please.
Her school's sec3 camp is at Indonesia! :(
Stupid Kranji,
At Yishun.
Sian.
Rather at Changi like sec2 camp sia! :(

Bus-ed home with M,
Reached home at only like 11pm.
LOL.

And Glenn Tan's back le! :DD

Photos below:D
Credits to WeiLing and Daryl Tan HB

Friendship&Family,

2010-05-21T17:12:00.011+08:00

It's these small moments in life,
which makes me smile even until now.
It's these pictures that make you wonder,
What would life be without them.
It's these people whom helped in one way or another,
Telling you everything's alright and being there for you.
Friendship and Family,
Are what's keeping my life going now.

2010-05-17T20:43:00.002+08:00

"This Mid-Year, I've studied so hard and done my best. Yet all my results are either a fail or borderline pass. What's wrong? Now I understand why some people give up after facing similar problems, because I'm giving up on myself now. I don't want to work hard for anything anymore, it's no use also. In the end, there are just disappointments and sadness, tearing and bringing me down. I'm done here,"

Sighs,
I'm de-motivated now.
Thanks to Ngai Yan for trying to motivate me,
And to those who commented on my facebook status,
Trying to pick me up from my fall.

Reminisce,

2010-05-14T19:57:00.003+08:00

{ Memories are what I have, not what I want }

How can you forget someone,
Who gave you so much to remember?
I am trying my very best forgetting you now,
And it's working.
One day,
You'll only be a fragment of my memories,
Forever etched deeply in my heart.

When someone hurts you,
There's a part of you who is with that person.
I guess it'll always hurt and angry,
But after awhile it becomes less.
Yet this person,
Is someone you'll never forget.

So many things happened,
I want you to know I'll be there as a friend to you.
It's your choice if you want to confide in me or just use me as a listening ear,
Because I will hear and listen.

To M,
Thanks for being there.
You taught me what it is to be loved.
Thank you.

Life with you has been a blast,
I can't imagine life without you.

But sometimes,
It's so hard to love you.
You love me 100% while I think I only love you 99%.
I will never make up for that 1%,
I don't know why.

Just make forever that promise.

What's gotten over me?

2010-05-13T22:32:00.005+08:00

{ This is how I face life now, WTH }

I really got no motivation anymore.
Everything I do,
When I put in my best,
I don't get what I want.

Is life supposed to be like this?
After you put in so much effort,
All you get is failures?
I don't want this kind of life,
This kind of results.

Ms Lee said something very good today,
" If you put in effort and you don't score well, you're affected we teachers understand.
But if you don't put in effort and yet you're affected, we teachers still have to care. "
{ I paraphrased it myself, not word for word }
Sighs,
I did put in a lot of effort for mid-years.
And now the first paper I got back,
I got an E8 for A Maths.
While other people can get 59/60?!?

Wow,
This is so wonderful.

2010-05-11T22:54:00.005+08:00

Mark Brenner's Chocolate Bar@Esplanade today :D
With Julia, Kar Ying, Jia Ying and Suha :D
Madness awesome :D
Had Frutti Tutti Waffles, Banana and Hazelnut Cream Crepe,Malting Marshmallow Crepe,Intense Double Chocolate Fudge Cake,Warm Fondue,Fruit Smoothie and Frozen Lemonade :D

LOL.
Then I bought a red heels :D
For $30 only! :D

Pictures at the bottom!! :D

2010-05-08T22:14:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday to ME! :D

Thanks to:
Jia Hui, Sue Kim, Hazel, Suha, Jing Xiang, Phyllis, Leon,

Belinda, Shawn Neo, Afiq, Marcus Wong, Kam Ho, Linus Ang,

Wei Ling, Lucia, Daryl Tan HB, Kian Ming, Patrizha, Jun

Chuan, Patrizha, Kar Ying, Oscar and Serene for the birthday smses :D

Darren Lee and Glenn Tan AND JIAYING!! for the birthday calls :D

Winona and Reagan for the birthday msn :D

Yong Ming, Evelyn, You Cheng, Wan Zhen, Wu Ping, Esther, Zhi

Kai, Samantha, Petrina, Jeanette, Xin Yi, Heidi, Kimiko, Li Xia,

Daren Lim, Hazwan, Tomoe, June Tan, Ryan Tan, Pauline,

Elle, Clarice, Joshua Sia, Xin Yu, Hisyam, Mandy, Nadia Lee,

Ryan Jee, Hannah Wong, Cindy, Wayne Toh, Juven, Samuel

Lim, Cilian, Cheng Hou, Jonathan Lua, Glennys, Brandon Wee,

Benjamin Lee, Marcus Wong, Benjamin Leow, Ritchie, Patrizha,

Jie Hui, Bryan Ang, Stanley, Phyllis, Bryan Lee, Jie Heng,

Hannah Wong, Alwin, David Chew, Min Yi, Linus Ang, Alastair,

Kai Long, Marcus Phua, Shu Heng, Peilynn, Yong Ling, Zhen

Yu, Si Ming, Jaswin, Syahiratul, Evania, Rebecca, Regan,

Kendrick, Lincoln, Kam Ho, Chuan Guan, Eva, Angelina,

Marcus Goh, Fiona Lai, Wei Ling, Xin Yi, Yang Yu, Charmane,

Venus, Lucia, Ann, Shermaine, Shu Qi, Hwai Yi, Shun Jie Beverly and Yuan Ting for your facebook wishes :D

Seriously a lot of people sia.
I counted the number of people.
Got 111 different people altogether!!
LOL!

Today spent my day with Effervescence! :D
Had lunch with Jun Chuan, Patrizha and Marcus Wong!
Then met with Ryan,David Chew,Brandon,Celestine,Ian,Grace Fun,Eve,Germaine,Zenas and went to Germaine's house for CG.
Then had a birthday celebration with the CG :D
So happy!

Then went to causeway with Ryan,David,Jun Chuan,Marcus and Eve.
Went to stereo,
{ Convo between me and Marcus }
Me: { Saw a earpiece i like } Hint Hint. Marcus this earpiece veh nice. Hint Hint marcus today is a special day. Hint hint marcus you haven't got me my present.
Marcus: You want ah? I buy for you :D

LOL.
And he got me a purple earpiece! :D
ARGHS.
And patrizha got me all SHINee products for my birthday! :D
Eve got me a waterbottle! :D
Darren Lee got me a handmade handphone strap! :D

Enjoyed today a lot :D

2010-05-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

Tired.
Finally an A Math paper left.
Can't wait for saturday!
*hint hint*

:D

2010-05-04T00:09:00.002+08:00

Thanks M'Love.
You taught me what true friendship was,
You taught me what love is,
It was you who pulled me out from all this,
Giving me hope,
Staying by my side always,
Telling me everything will be alright because you are here for me.

Thank you.
You know I love you.
Be there for me always,
No matter what.
I know it has been a hard time for me,
But you were always there to encourage and pick me up.
It has been quite a hard time for you too.
Don't let distance be our distance :D
I love you, M'love

2010-05-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

Can't life be any simpler?

th 28th,

2010-04-23T15:30:00.002+08:00

Really.
Why must this happen?
I've lost enough friends and here the same thing happening all over again.
I don't know if I'm gonna lose another one.
But I've a feeling I am.

After so long I knew you,
I trusted you so much and here all this is happening.
Guess I really am not the sort that looks out for the right people.

If this is the way you want it to be then fine.
What pissed me off is the fact that I didn't even do anything wrong.
Like hello?
What's wrong?

I'm screwing up my life day by day.
I'm so stressed le.
And I have this amount of work to finish by Monday-26.04 :
*3 Past year Maths paper ( Both E and A Maths )
2 Past year Chemistry Paper
*2 Social Studies SBQ worksheets
*1 Physics Past year Paper
*3 A maths Logarithm Maths Exercise
*1 English Proposal
*1 Physics Textbook Homework
2 Chemistry Mole Concept Worksheet
*1 Higher Chinese Paper 2
*1 Higher Chinese Paper 1

GOSH!
How to finish all? :(
Or at least those with Astrix.
Sigh,
I hate life now.

th 27th,

2010-04-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

Mugged whole day today :D
With Julia :D

th 26th,

2010-04-21T19:33:00.002+08:00

Why must you tell me you love her?
Why must you tell me you want her?
Why must you tell me you've fallen for her?
Why can't you just keep all this to yourself?
And leave me alone.

Now I lack courage to do anything.
All I can wish now is for you to be gone.
Even though a part of me wants us to stay like this and be good friends,
But the best thing for me and you is for me to forget you totally,
For me to give you up completely,
For me to kick you out of my life.

Those 3 months I've spent with you.
There were great memories,
But there were also hurtful memories.
It was a tough 3 months together.
I'm glad it ended.
Or else I wouldn't have been happier,
After seeing the good in someone else.

I guess this is the way it will end.

th 25th,

2010-04-20T17:32:00.002+08:00

Sunday went out with family to celebrate Bro's birthday :D
Madness fun.
Went to Marche at 313@Somerset :D
I bought a dress and a skirt :D
Yay :D

Then spent my whole day like that!
LOL.
Then Monday stayed back to mug with Suha :D
Really hated what I saw and heard.

Then today went to Gelare at Causeway with Wei Ling and Joann :D
Madness fun :D

Then now going to do work then going class soon le :(
Wish me luck.

th 22nd,

2010-04-17T21:54:00.008+08:00

Today is a great day! :D
Supposed to wake at 6 and reach school at 7!
But I only woke at 6.42-.-
Chionged to school like mad but still made it :D

Then headed to VJC for a photojournalist seminar :D
Mad nice :D
Then spammed photos with DSLR cameras! :D

Then reached school at about 1plus 2.
So me, Lucia, Oscar, Kar Ying walked to Lot1 and met Suha for lunch :D
Then we headed to Sakae Sushi :D
Had loads of fun and laughter there :D
Guess that was what cheered me up.

Then went to Woodlands and Suha came my house to mug :D
Then when she left,
I went to Woodgrove and ate dinner with Patrizha, Eve, Germaine, Zenas, Ryan and David :D
Madness nice :D
Talked to Eve too :D

I guess I'm learning to let go.

Photos of today taken by Yentl and Daryl Tan HB BELOW :D

My NUM and Lucia's NUM :D

Oscar's retarded face!
WOW, didn't know Nadia was that short.
Ouch, my head.
ME group photo :D
ME group photo:D
ME group photo :D
ME group photo :D
Shot of me emo-ing :(
YAY!

Hand in Hand, we jump :D
WHOOTS :D
L-O-V-E

Twist :D

AWW... Two Lucias?!?

Hello :D

Emoing again.

Yes, I jumped with tempered pants!

th 21th,

2010-04-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

{Sigh, what's wrong?}

These few days,
Really very tired.
Even Mdm Yong can see that I'm tired.

Mugged these few days like mad.
Freaking darn tired now :(
Really need a good rest,
But in a period like this I can't :(

Everywhere I go,
I see you.
I don't want to.
But maybe it's fate.
I don't know.
I only know I'm sick of everything.
I'm going to leave everything to you.
DO it yourself.

You left alone but came back in two.
And you tell me you want to keep your distance.
WOW.
Say one thing,
Yet do the other.
Wonder how people trust you.
And yeah,
Don't bring you anger and hatred for me to someone else.
Leave innocent people alone.
Anything come find me.
We sit down and talk.
Don't get innocent people implicated.

I'm really sick of life,
I'm giving up on myself very very soon.
One day,
I'll collapse and never wake again.
It's hard keeping up with such a life.
When you need your friends, they are not there for you.
When you don't need them, they come to you and expect you to help them.
Yet when you need their help, they leave you to fend for yourself.
Is there anyone I can really rely on?
Because of one stupid mistake,
I lost almost everything in life.
If I didn't make that mistake,
I guess everything will be okay.
I will be happy,
Very much happier.
One mistake led me to lose everything,
To regret for life.

I can't seem to find time and tell someone what I'm really thinking.
I want to talk to someone about it.
Talk ALL about it.
But I can't seem to find that someone.
Everybody's so busy.
Nobody have the time to care for me.

I really wished maybe one day,
I will be really happy.
I want to be happy.
I know happiness is a choice.
But even if I made that choice,
I still won't be happy.

Maybe it's time to let go?
Let it all go somewhere else.
Perhaps over the rainbow.
Somewhere where I won't see my problems anymore.
Somewhere where I won't think of anything.
I'm learning to let go.
But I'm someone that can't control my emotions.
When I'm sad,
It'll say it on my face.
Even though I try so hard to put up a strong front,
People cant still see through me.

th 17th,

2010-04-12T22:43:00.002+08:00

Maybe it was a mistake right from the start.
I only saw your true colors after knowing you for so long.
I guess I deserve to be treated like shit.

I'm screwing up my life.
And yet, I can't do anything about it.
I want to care, But I'm afraid to.
And yeah,
Maybe today was a mistake.

I'm not sure about that.
But all I want is for you to treat me genuinely.
Don't take me as a fool.
I'm not some 3-year-old kid.
I'm someone who has feelings.
I'm a human too.

I'm collapsing soon.
All these stress is killing me.
I want a good rest.
A real good rest where I won't be disturbed or affected by anything.
I want to not care anymore!
I want to wash my hands off all this.
But I can't.
I don't know why.
I just can't.

Guess everything will never be the same.

th 16th,

2010-04-11T23:00:00.001+08:00

Just give up.
Why continue thinking about someone that doesn't care?
If all that persone thinks is the past,
Then why bother thinking whether you have a future with that someone?
It's useless.
Though I've let you go,
I still care.
So give up is all I can say now.

Had like a long day today.
Go church,
Then lunch-ed,
Then shopping,
Then movie,
Then dinner.

WOW.
I'm tired :(

2010-04-10T21:57:00.004+08:00

Gosh,
Suddenly I miss 2c'09 so so much! :(
BooHoo.
Separate such a united class for what sia?!?
Stupid school.

I want 2c back!
Cries Cries!!

Photos and memories of 2c'09!

Today pei-ed Suha go do her EZ link card :D
Met her at Lot1 at like 12plus.
Then I left early for CG.
Then went downstairs play basketball and slacked with Patrizha and Jun Chuan :D
Then went Patrizha's home and watched the last episode of Boys Over Flowers! :D
Mad awesome :D

To X,
Cheer up :D
Don't always so sad.
And it's not the end of the world yet.
Stay happy and everything will be okay :D

To M,
Sorry for everything.

th 15th,

2010-04-10T10:15:00.002+08:00

3E had Service Learning on Thursday, 8th April!! :D

It was mad fun luhh :D
Though I was like 2nd-in-charge.
Load of things to take care of.
LOL.

{ P'hoto C-redits to JoannKhooLiMin}

Joann played the Er Hu!!
So nice luhh :D
Will be back later to post after going out and CG! :D
Miss me people :D

the 14th,

2010-04-09T19:18:00.003+08:00

Just back home now.
Spent my whole day with Lucia and Kar Ying :D
Love them loads :D
Love the times at Limbang! :D
Talked alot sia!
Feel so good letting it all out :D
And yeah.
I've set my eyes on Lucia!
She's mine mine mine :D

Haha.
Looking forward to Mid Year :D
Cause after that I can go out with LUCIA LIM! :D
Gosh,
Can't wait!
Haha.
Mad love this girl!
Hehe.
And can couple phone with her!!
W595!
YAY YAY YAY :D
I'm so high now cause of Lucia this mad girl I love!
Hehe.

And yeah,
I really hate you.
ARGHS.

But whatever,
it's not my prob anymore.
Because I've set my eyes on someone else :D

the 13th,

2010-04-08T20:40:00.003+08:00

{Gosh, You two rock my life}

Went to blog hop and chance upon Julia's blog.
Not sure if she made her playlist on shuffle,
Heard this song "At The Cross" By Hillsong.

After hearing it,
It made me realised how we all say we are Christians,
But don't act like one.
We don't desire to want to grow closer to the Lord,
We sometimes just go church because our friends are going too.

At The Cross-Hillsong United
Verse 1
Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my ways
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now (x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done (x2)

And when the earth fades
falls from my eyes
You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now (x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done (x4)

These few days have been hectic!
Just finished SL project for 3E today :D
Fun :D

Very tired now.
I really dread going to school everyday,
Why can't there be one day I won't have to see either of you guys?
I was close to not seeing one of you today,
But I saw in the end.
WOW.
I'm really tired.
Mentally and Physically.
I need to rest,
But I can't find time to.
Why? :(

2010-04-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

Just get of my life.
Shoo!
I want nothing to do with you.
Your presence irks me out,
Your voice makes me want to puke,
Your actions make me want to slap you.

How I wish I never knew you.
Whatever now.
I shall try my best and not give a damn.

SL,SL,SL
These few days busy with SL :(
Now still chionging.
I want go Amazing Race!!
Why must it fall on the same day as my SL? :(
BooHooHoo...

Yeah.
Busy with ME too :(
But fun fun fun :D

I know no matter what,
Life has to go on.
There may be people you don't like, people you hate.
But nevertheless,
Think of those you love.

They should be worth more of your energy and time,
Rather than those people who aren't worth anything at all.
I've learnt this and I'm gonna make it worht while.
Leaving myself for those I love and those that love me.
Not those that interfere in my life, tearing me down!

I really got to move on in life and see the world ouside.
Rather than coop myself up in my room,
Making myself think so much.

2010-04-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

Gosh.
Busy busy busy :(

Yesterday had ME then met Jun Chuan at lot then slacked and go home! :D

Then today after pei Wei Ling go eat then pei Eve and Julia go lot eat.
Jun Chuan met us after, then went to slack again :D

Anyways, Happy Birthday Ryan NGan :D

If you wanted me to talk to blah, why bother still talking to blah -.-
Waste my time only.
You said you had to choose blah over blah.
But you still chose both what -.-

2010-04-04T22:23:00.003+08:00

Yesterday had BBQ!
Wait.
I talked about that le.
Okays.

Let's talk about today! :D

Woke up at 8 then RUSHED to causeway to meet CG cause I thought I was late le.
Called Jun Chuan, no answer.
Called Patrizha, no answer.
Called Marcus, OTW.

Then at 8.40 when we were supposed to meet,
Everybody just woke up -.-
Super awesome larhs.
Then I slacked at Mac and ate breakfast with Marcus and Jun Chuan.

Then went service and I went home!
Slept the whole afternoon!
Madness loved it :D
SO awesome la :D

Then went out for dinner too :D
Just came back :D

And to Jing Xiang,

CHEER UP :D

Don't always so sad larhs :D

Must learn to face everyday with a SMILE :D

M,
Life's been great after knowing you.
I guess it's worth while.
You always cheer me up,
No fail.
Thanks :D
And you always do the things I least expect! :D
I {heart} You :D

BBQ

2010-04-03T23:14:00.003+08:00

Just reached home.
Went BBQ!
Awesome.
Though there were a lot of things in my mind, these people kept it off my mind for the night!
Thanks Jun Chuan, Patrizha and Eve :D
Love you guys to the max! :D

BBQ was awesome.
Especially worship

Just leave the hell out of me.
Leave me alone and never come back.
I want to not care but I can't.
Yet when I do, you don't.

Bitch,

2010-04-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

Whatever,
Bitch.

Mugged today with Jun Chuan and Eve :D
Awesome is all I can say :D

And yeah,
Bitch whatever you want to.
I don't give a damn at all.

Just leave me alone.
Get out of my life.
I want nothing to do with you.
If I had a gun,
I'll shoot you then me.

I really can't take it anymore.
Carry on like this,
I'll collapse.
I may look strong,
But actually deep down I'm not.

So just get out of my life and leave me alone.
Stop making my life miserable for me.
And if you think I did this to myself,
Then stop rubbing salt on my wound.
I don't want to live this type of life anymore.

Liar

2010-04-01T22:02:00.005+08:00

{Lies, nothing but lies}

Damn shag these few days.

Last night I mugged til 2plus 3plus am.
Then wanted to go sleep le.
Then Jing Xiang replied my msg then I just msg him til like 4plus 5am.
Then went to wash up and go lie on bed.
When it was 5.30am, I know I going sleep le.
But at 5.30, it's time for me to wake.
Hardly had any sleep!
:(

Go school.
Oratorical :)
Joann :D

Then got maths test.
Heng I know how do everything sia.
If not i confirm cry.
Mugged so hard for maths test and if can't do,
Haiz,
Confirm gg le.

And yeah,
After finding out the true colors of people you'll realise that it's easier to understand them this way.
And now I can't sleep,
Cause I scared tomorrow wake too early.

And tomorrow I'm gonna mug at Limbang!
Yay :)
What a great way to spend a public holiday -.-

I felt so foolish to do that.
I was foolish to be living in a live full of your lies.
I didn't think you would be so cruel to me.
Lying to me every second we're together.
I thought your feelings towards me was genuine.
Guess I was wrong.
I was dumb enough to let you toy with my feelings,
Dumb enough to realise now that I'm dumb.
I wanted to believe you,
But those messages proved me wrong.
It was before 24th March that pissed me off.
If it was after, I wouldn't care at all.
" I like it when you head lies near mine",
" I just now felt like kissing you".
Why must you toy with my feelings?
I don't understand,
If you don't love me then you could just say.
You didn't have to make me fall so hard and just leave me there to pick myself up.

M,Hello

2010-03-30T15:55:00.003+08:00

These are the photos I promised!

Google Chrome is so much easier to upload photos!

I shall take note of that :)

And,

It's too late telling all these when it's over.

It'll never be same.

I chose to move on in life and see the better in someone else.

I don''t want to reminisce about the past.

I want to look in the future.

In life,

It isn't always perfect.

There were good memories but for us, there weren't.

All I could remember was the pain, hurt and tears.

You don't need me in your life now.

You are better off without me.

You have friend who will support you,

Who will cheer you up when you're down,

Who will lend you a shoulder when you need it.

My presence will only hinder your future.

Forget me like I would.

Love someone else and not think about me anymore.

Leave me as a memory, but not a memory you will reminisce every time.

I promised you before,

I will be strong and carry on.

Don't worry about me anymore.

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2010-03-29T21:18:00.001+08:00

Why can't you just leave me alone?

Stop ruining my life!

2010-03-29T20:58:00.002+08:00

Went school.
As usual.
Everywhere I go I kept seeing X,
even outside school -.-

Talked to Anta about stuff.
Thanks pal :)

Then had CCA.
Mad fun :)
Kept crapping with Ms Karen Wong! :D
And I dragged Darren Lee to be in the same group as me for competition :D
AWESOME :)

Then went home and met M and slacked near my house :)
Talked a lot and crapped a lot :)

2010-03-28T17:32:00.006+08:00

Wanted to upload photos,
But blogger is killing me.

I'm gonna do it tomorrow when I have time.
Now I have to chiong 剪报! :(

These few days was hectic.
When I thought I could trust you, you broke that trust.
I don't know what to do with everything now.
I lost trust in a lot of people.
Maybe I'm sensitive,
Maybe I'm thinking too much.

But still,
I was sad that you broke your promise.
Everything you said was a pack of lies.
I knew trust was a problem we had,
But I never knew how to handle it.

But now,
I knew what love means and what is love,
Love that doesn't require commitment.
It's loving from the dark,
And yet bringing light to that person.

And using this post I want to thank 3 people!
Darren Lee, Jun Chuan and Suha :)

Darren Lee
You always pei me.
Pei me talk,
Pei me when I'm alone,
Pei me when I'm down.
Thanks :)
You will go to great lengths for a friend,
And I'm glad I am your friend :)
Knowing you was such a great thing,
I sometimes wonder why I never know you earlier!

Jun Chuan
Always there for me.
Every time bored,
Will come my house here pei me,
Will carry my stuff for me,
Will make sure I'm happy,
Will do anything to cheer me up,
Will walk me home! :)
Thanks :)
Sorry about the past.
Let bygones be bygones! :)

Suha
A faithful friend I must say.
And it's through you that I got to know Darren better.
Thanks :)
You always there to lend me your shoulder when I need you.
Thanks.
PALM!! :)
And I know I'm PSLM!! :)

Happy

2010-03-27T21:17:00.003+08:00

Today was awesome.
Went school for Sports fiesta.
Shall post the pictures tomorrow :)

Then 3E set up a booth near 4D's booth.
Lol.
Then had mad loads of fun doing stupid things.
Kept singing songs KPTT played :)
Haha.
Heard Rude Boy by Rihanna,
cause I asked Shao Xiang play de :)
AWESOME x1000000000000 :)

Then went to causeway to meet Marcus and Jun Chuan :)
Then went to Mac and slacked.
Had Dark Mocha Frappe from Starbucks :)
Then I went home and bathed and went to have lunch at Sun Plaza.
Went Zenas house then now just reached home :)

Had an awesome day today :)
Thanks :)

And I didn't ask for Z to splash you de.

I love you.

2010-03-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

Updating,
I will forget you.
I will put you away.
I will disappear from your life.

Today was fun fun fun!
Did poster with Wei Ling.
Then went to Lot1 with Daryl HB to meet Lucia and Joann to study together.
Then went back to school for Parent-Teachers-Meeting.

Something happened.
I'm starting to be happy again :)

2010-03-25T17:35:00.005+08:00

Forget it.

Thanks to:
♥'Suha
Thanks for listening to all my stupid stories and coming to school early to pei me.

♥'Darren Lee
Thanks for pei-ing me through that tough night and trying all ways to cheer me up.

♥'Wei Ling
Thanks for understanding how I feel.

♥'Jun Chuan
Thanks for walking me home and pei-ing me through that tough night too.

♥'Yue Ning
Thanks for telling me its all not gone.

♥'Min Yi
Thanks for the nicer smiley face.

♥'Anta
Thanks for asking how I was.

♥'Daryl Tan HB
Thanks for cheering me up with the video.
"pick yourself up from the ground, if you choose to give up, no1 can help you

you have to learn to forget, to give up, to be happy. you can never solve a maths qn, and it always seems hard, till you learn to, and you try the best you can. no1 is born and knows 1+1 = 2, we all have learn, we all have tried, that's why we're where we are"

Thanks for the encouragement too soulmate.

♥'Glenn
Thanks for listening and telling me so many things.

♥'Sophia
Thanks for telling me a lot of things.

♥'Kar Ying
Thanks for asking if I'm alright.

♥'Joey Chee
Thanks for letting me know who he really is and telling me a lot of things.

I guess its through this type of circumstances,
You know who really will stand by your side.
And for those who don't know what really happened,
Don't bother asking.

You know I want you.

2010-03-24T18:34:00.003+08:00

{The past was filled with laughters, not now.}

Hooked up on two songs now.
According to you and Bad news by ORIANTHI :)
She's mad awesome.
Pink words are how I feel now.

According to you-Orianthi

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's for everything I'm not,
according to you.

According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
you're the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I'm not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

Bad News-Orianthi

Gimme the bad news
Yea, tell it to me straight
I can take it
I'll start on the countdown
I've got about a minute left for you
Someday, I'm gonna laugh it off until I cry
Someway, I'm going to get on with my life

So gimme the bad news baby
Now don't make me wait
I wanna know that I'm your biggest mistake
Gimme the bad news baby
Now don't turn away
I know the truth no matter what you say
Gimme the bad news, the bad news today

So tell me how it feels when you fake it
You nearly ought to hang around
And even if there's nothing left to do
Yea, go on
Let me see you act like the king of truth
Yea, be strong
I'm gonna leave it up to you

So gimme the bad news baby
Now don't make me wait
I wanna know that I'm your biggest mistake
Gimme the bad news baby
Now don't turn away
I know the truth no matter what you say
Gimme the bad news, the bad news today

Tell it to me loud
That you can't take it
Yea, scream it out loud
We're going down
I wanna stay and shout
Now gimme something to do

So gimme the bad news baby

So gimme the bad news baby
Now don't make me wait
I wanna know that I'm your biggest mistake
Gimme the bad news baby
Now don't turn away
I know the truth no matter what you say
Gimme the bad news, the bad news today
Gimme the bad news today

So gimme the bad news
Yea, tell it to me straight
Gimme the bad news

Oops?

2010-03-22T21:29:00.002+08:00

{Oops, I did it again.}

Well, today was quite okay.
Went school and tried to chiong chinese homework but couldn't :(
Was spammed with smses from loads of people :)

Then Darren Lee came and find me and pei-ed me to locker :)
Thanks :)

Then in class, crapped with loads people as usual.
And physics stood up near 2hours just cause I never bring file :(
Jovita, Calvin and Joshua too :)

Then lunch-ed with Daryl Tan HB, Stanley and Joann.
Then went to Limbang and bought Sweettalk :D

Went back to school and spammed the class whiteboard and also helped Joann with her Oratorical Speech.
Hope I helped!

Then had CCA and ended at about 6.
Saw Pink twice today and Pink came to find me after school.
Mad happy x100000000000000000
:D

And and and,
two sad thing.
1:
Cause pei Wei Ling go see L.
Then I missed the chance of seeing Pink.
Cause Kar Ying and Jia Ying took the normal route back to class, and Pink was walking up!
2:
Going to third floor to AVA for chinese.
I took the normal route.
But I missed Pink again.
Only saw his back view :(
But still saw Pink! :D

And to Pink,
I {LOVE} You;

I {MISS} You;

I {WANT} You;

I {HAVE} You?

I really hope we could be like last time,
where it was filled with smiles and laughter's,
no quarrels or sadness:D

I LOVE YOU! :D

I Love You

2010-03-21T19:03:00.003+08:00

To that special you:

These days have been chaotic.

But nevertheless, I still love you.

Though I can't make you happy, I know one day I will.

Everybody says it's wrong for me to be hurt anymore.

But I can't bear to.

Cause of something.

These few days,

You've been so cold towards me.

Every message I received from you, tears can't help but flow.

Only those with smileys really make me smile.

Well,

Life's a climb but the view's great.

I have to agree.

Every step you take, you see something different.

As the days go by, memories are flooded in your head.

You want to forget the bad ones but you can't.

Because it's the bad ones that make all the memories stay.

It's hard sometimes to give and let go.

But chances are what make people cherish you more.

Some people say " It takes two hands to clap ",

but I think " It takes two willing hands to clap".

{Patrizha said Marcus said the exact same thing! WOW. Coincidence!}

Without you, I can't do anything.

So be there when I need you,

Give me good memories and not the bad ones.

And if this is all a dream,

I'd rather stay in the dream than face reality.

I hate you,JCTY.

2010-03-20T23:55:00.008+08:00

{I'm using my tears to wash my face everyday}

Dickhead?Fcuktard?
Awesome words used by korh to describe Z.

You one moment ask me to let you be alone for a few days.
Then now you telling me you'll talk to me tomorrow.
Ask me don't sad, must be happy?

What you want sia?

{e-dit 21.03.10 1751}

Go.

Go and think of HER by all means.

Go and message other girls by all means.

You know I mind and yet you aren't doing anything about it.

Pick me up now that I've fallen..

2010-03-20T20:41:00.009+08:00

{Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up}

A lot of things happened.
Broke down yesterday after something happened.
Haiz. Life's hard :(

Went JP2 just now and bought a file from ARTBOX and headphone from Challenger.
Bought for Darren Lee and Jun Chuan too :)

Then went to Railmall and rented some dvds.

And I really want to give up on Higher Chinese lerhs.
The homework given is just too much.
Veh stress sia.

{White one is Darren de :) The other one is Jun Chuan de :) Same color}

{File from ARTBOX, saw it at ION then fell in love with it so went JP2 and bought it}

{I know I'm stupid. I can't make you happy. I can't make you forget her. But I still love you, love you too much to let you go. But the more I love you, the more I get hurt every time you break my heart. But I will get used to it like what Joanna said. I will get used to you not telling me everything, not being honest with me, not forgetting her, not being able to pei me. I will give you time. Just don't treat me differently. Treat me like before. Treat me like yours.}

Thank you God

2010-03-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

THANKSGIVING TO GOD!

Though I no mood now, but still I want to thank God for something.
Last night Jun Chuan, Grace and Patrizha prayed for me.
Prayed for my friendships with H and Z to be better.

And it did.
H talked to me le.
And H said H will let go of the past.

Thank you God.

Think of me please..

2010-03-19T13:39:00.004+08:00

I know Family;Friends;Badminton is always more important than me.
But do you have to treat me as if I'm a nobody?

You ask yourself.
When was the time that we arranged to go out and we really did?
I could only remember 29th Dec.
And now is what?
19th March.

I hate you for always disappointing me.
You always expect me to do so much for you and you ask yourself,
What have you done for me?

Since I'm so insignificant to you,
I really don't see the point of being together with you anymore.

Don't blame me if I were to leave you.

{My tears are flowing everyday while you just sit there and watch it flow..}

Smiles were a part of life,

2010-03-18T23:26:00.005+08:00

{Waiting for my wish to come true}

Just came back home.
Mad tired.
Morning met Suha at Lot1 at like 9plus then walked to school.
Did my work while waiting for her IP to finish then went to Limbang Mac for lunch and to mug together.
With Darren Lee and Kian Ming too.

Then went to school for Maths Olympiad.
Saw JingXiang outside school hall while walking to Lot1 to meet Eve :)
Then MRT-ed to Admiralty and met Germaine, David, Marcus, Zenas, Celestine, Jun Chuan, Grace and Patrizha :)
Ate dinner and had like a sharing session.

Then went away with Patrizha and talked about all our problems.
We both cried.
Machiam waterfall sia.
LOL.

Then bus-ed home and JingXiang pei-ed me and cheered me up :)
Thank you and I love you :)

{Pat's Adidas:) Mad Love it!!}

Face it stupid. Love is painful

2010-03-17T18:36:00.003+08:00

Tired.
Just reached home.
Miss you.
But I can't do anything.
You also don't want to make an effort to see me then why should I?

"There's no hurt without love and no love without hurt."
Very very true.

Going take nap le i think.
GAWD.
I'm tired.
Hols ending soon and I haven't finish my homework-.-
Jiayous to me le lo.

Never leave me, Stay by my side forever holding me..

2010-03-16T21:11:00.005+08:00

I already fell for you so hard, I know I can never get out of it anymore.
So even if it means you hurting me over her, I don't mind.
As long you're happy,
As long as you still love me,
That's good enough for me.

Had Maths Olympiad on Mon and Tues.
Don't understand today's lesson.
Yesterday's lesson was easier to understand :)

Was actually very down.
But after reading someone's post, my mood took a 360degree turn.
AND I'M HAPPY NOW!:)

Tomorrow won't see someone.
:'(
But at least Friday going out :)
Yayness TTM :)

Spent the whole day in school and at Limbang Mac.
Didn't really enjoyed being there but no choice -.-

You're relieving the past while I'm making my future.

2010-03-14T17:38:00.005+08:00

{I want you, Headphones}

Okays.
Back home now finally.
LOLS.

Went church this morning and then study with CG :)
Then we went to slack :)
Me and Jun Chuan just can't stop ranting about the headphones above.
And we promise to buy it together :)
Haha.
Awesome.
Went Stereo see but don't have this color.
Then Jun Chuan don't want all pink so I later going ION and see whether there have anot :)
Or at least Orchard :)

AWESOME:)

Why must it be her?
Why can't you just stop making me sad?

{P.Blog updated}

Loving is better than hating:)

2010-03-13T20:06:00.001+08:00

{Mad love my W995 now}

Just got new phone :)
W995:)
It's freaking nice to use:)
So much better than W595 or Samsung Preston -.-
Anyways, Hi people.

I'm feeling so much better now.
Though during afternoon was super no mood -.-

Ate dinner at Mos with CG and slack with loads people.
Tomorrow going out again :)
Awesome.

AND I WANT TO GO E乐大赏!! :'(

Encouragement♥

2010-03-12T22:46:00.005+08:00

" Time goes by, things be okay. Now your priorities is studies. And I believe God won't want to see his dearest daughter Amanda suffering alone, He will always lend you a listening ear and teach you a way out."

Thanks Joanna♥

Never knew you would be so encouraging towards me after all that we've gone through.
Haha.
Anyways, Thanks :)

You are an awesome friend :)

Now I know why he wants to be close with you :)

Crying so hard for your love..

2010-03-12T19:03:00.007+08:00

{First time crying so hard over you}

Well, today's not a good day.
AND I HATE MY SEAT NOW IN CLASS-.-
[Suha you should know why(:]
I'm gonna stay at Kai Wei's seat from now on.

First it was KD then LK then now KD again.
:'(

You tell me you trying hard to forget about her.
And today I saw your photo with her in your phone.
Like WTH?
You say you trying your very best to forget her but you can't.
Of course you can't.

You know why?
Cause:
1) You still have her picture in your phone.
2) You still have her picture in your com.
3) You still have her photo in your room.
4) You still have two rings in your room engraved with her big, fat name.
5) You still have loads of memories you have with her in your mind.
And lastly,
It's cause you don't love me so much that your love for me can forget about her.

I fell so hard for you I totally forgotten about him le.
But you?

How will you ever forget about her when you still have all your memories with her around you everyday?
Her photo can become your screen saver and mine can't be your wallpaper -.-
:'(

"可不可以爱我,可不可以想我,
我知道我与你的爱情会变很深,
别害怕不够多,因为我会变成爱心,
跑进你心,永远不分离."
I will forever remember those words.
Cause this is what you told me and promised me :)
Forever.♥
And it's why it kept me going :)
I Love You.♥

P.S. Just stop making me sad -.-
Permanent happiness is impossible but happiness is possible.♥

And to SUHA!:)
Thanks for always being there for me.
Today when I was so sad, you pei-ed me and comforted me.
Thanks.
You never fail to be there.
To be my shoulder when I need you.
Thanks pal :)
I LOVE YOU TTM!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
When I was crying, you were like my tissue and pillow :)
Making feel better and letting me know it's not worth crying so hard.
And you pei-ed me eat Mac TODAY!!:)

And to Wei Ling and Jun Chuan♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Thanks for hearing all my stupid problems and caring so much :)

2010-03-10T18:12:00.002+08:00

{I Love You}

A lot of things happened these few days.
Cried a few times too but I guess it's over.
I hope.

Why must every relationship be hurt by another person?
And why does it always have to be bearing all the pain.
And you just don't bother to ease my pain.
But makes it even more painful.

And every time we quarrel, it's always for the same old reason.
Her.
You know I don't like you being close with her and yet you still do.
You know I don't like you going out with her and yet you still do.
You know because of her how many times you've broke my heart?
Countless.

If you see this then good.
If you don't then take it as I'm blabbering rubbish.

And it's been 7months plus.
I don't understand why you still can't forget about her!
If you still think of her means you still love her.
Then why come and break into my heart and make me fall so hard for you when she's still in your heart?

I'm almost giving up.
Almost.

And what happened to "I'll keep my distance"?

Anyways, got back all my results except Chinese.

E Maths 33/40 82.5% A1
A Maths 23/40 57.5% C5
English 29/50 58.0% C5
History (Elective) 16/30 53.3% C6
Physics (Pure) 44/70 62.9% B4
Chemistry (Pure) 481/2/70 69.3% B3
Social Studies 21/30 70.0% A2
Higher Chinese -

Only 1 A.
Cause history marks is combined with Social Studies.
Super disappointed with myself.
Studied so hard and thought would do well but in the end results not up to my target.
History was so confident in myself to get at least B3 but in the end don't know why get so low also -.-
Must JIAYOUS for Mid Year lerhs!:)

Update:)

2010-03-08T15:30:00.016+08:00

Updating :)

Got back some results today.
Common test results so far:
E Maths 33/40 87.5% A1
A Maths 23/40 57.5% C5
Social Studies 21/30 70.0% A2
Physics (Pure) 44/70 63% B4

Totally not satisfied with my results so far.
Thought I could have done much better!
Especially A Maths and Physics!:(

And something bad happened today.
Read the end of the post to try and find out more.
And thanks to,
♥'Wei Ling

♥'Jing Xiang

♥'Kar Ying

♥'Suha
Thanks for trying to cheer me up when I cried today.
Really a loads of thanks and love to you guys :)

Anyways,
Hanged out with CG'Effervescence for two whole consecutive days! :)
AWESOME:)

Went Jamming on Saturday and had long lunch and open sunday on Sunday :)
Shall blog about Saturday then Sunday :)

And don't say i never warn you beforehand.
This post is filled with LOADS of pictures so take your time to read :)

Saturday 06.03.10 Jamming :)
Left house at about 12 to meet Eve at her mum's shop to get a haircut :)
Then supposedly to meet Jun Chuan at Causeway at 1pm.
But I only left Eve's mum's shop at 1.30.
HAHA.

Then met Jun Chuan at Causeway at 1.48pm and Patrizha too.
Then we MRT-ed to Admiralty to meet the rest :)
Germaine, Wei Sheng, Marcus, Patrizha, Zenas, Ian, Jun Chuan, Ryan, David, Eve and Me :)
AWESOME :)
11 people!!
Then we train-ed to Dhoby Ghaut and then Clarke Quay and walked to the studio.
Stayed there til about 6plus and left for Central :)
Dinner-ed there at subway and crapped and walked around :)
Saw Sticky and bought their LOVE MIX.
Went and took train to Somerset to meet family at Orchard Cineleisure to watch Alice in Wonderland 3D :)
That show is awesome :)
Then went home after that and reached home about 1plus am.

Sunday 07.03.10 Lunch and Open Sunday :)
Woke up at 8.
Went to bathe and chiong-ed to Causeway for service.
Awesome :)
Service at Causeway Cathay Cineplex :)
Sat couple seat with Eve :)
Then Germaine, Marcus, Patrizha, Zenas, David, Jun Chuan, Glendon, Eve and Me headed to Toast Box and had Brunch :)
Then Ryan joined us after wards :)
I had Mee Siam:)
Nice x10000000000

And we played tai di and bridge while waiting for time to past :)
Then Germaine, Patrizha, Brandon, Marcus, Zenas and Me went to wait for 912 at interchange.
Thought we were late already but saw a whole loads of other Youths queuing up at the back of the line!
Half the bus was filled with WEFC Youths!
Then alighted at Woodgrove and the poor bus driver had to wait for half the bus to alight!
Haha.
Then we walked and had Open Sunday.
Left at 4 to go home and do maths TYS! :)
Then went to Bedok and had Seafood dinner with family and Lydia :)
Awesome food but very far :(
Reached home at 10plus and was too tired to post then i just went to sleep!

To the best teacher in the world:
You are awesome I must say.
To be the first teacher,
That made me cry.
That made me stumble upon my words.
To make me feel so terrible up to now.
To feel so discouraged.
To demoralized me.
To make me feel useless.
To hate chinese.
To hate seeing you and hearing you talk during chinese.
To make me want to puke.
To make me feel disgusted.

2010-03-05T19:09:00.004+08:00

{Friends have colored my life but you were the one who drew it.}

Today!
Is such a marvelous day!

EXAMS ARE OVER OVER!
Awesome:)

Wanted to go have lunch with Suha at Food Junction!
But had Subway with her instead!
AWESOME AWESOME!
Holidays clique MUST MUST MUST go Orchard Ion!! :)

Then went to find JingXiang after that:)
Cause I damn lazy go Parliament House alone:(
WeiLing went home:)

Haha.
Then now super TIRED!
Jamming tomorrow!!
WHOOTS!

Can't wait wait wait!

AND AND AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHEN YU AND JOEY CHEE!! :)

My convo with Daryl the Short!

♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*??
*TELL ME!
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*eh
*i tell you
*SUPER FUNNY!!!
*just now right
*we take bus
*out of sch
*then mr teh super bad mood (cause we assemble late)
*then righr
*then right
*joshua go big mouth say
*EH LOOK OUT FOR ZIHAO TO THE LEFT/RIGHT
*MAYBE CAN SEE
*THEN
*WE REALLY SEE HIM WALKING
*ROFL
*THEN MR TEH ALSO SEE
*LOL
*then confirm 1week detention
*then right
*funniest shit
*@ the parliament house
*it was super lame
*except for calvin's funny jokes
*i think you go there you will emo
*but on the way back
*SUPER FUNNY
*WE ALL LAUGH LIKE SHIT
*cause @ parliament house we must surrender electronics
*so cher know we all bring hp
*then we on bus
*we just openly use
*then we all call zihao
*then we say
*harlow
*zihao ar
*eh i tell you
*mr teh say
*you 2 years detention
*detention till you graduate
*then i say
*eh you want you can drop go NA
*or you can learn joochiang (retain)
*then got 1 more year of freedom
*ROFL
*then right
*after that
*we go bullshit him
*calvin go act mr teh voice
*then we say
*eh mr teh just now sorethroat lah
*mr teh go quarrel w the MP (oh btw we saw mr goh chok tong)
*then right
*after that
*we say
*the voice not like mr teh
*cause
*sore throat
*then we go learn ms lee voice
*then we go learn his mum's & ahma's voice (anyhow make 1)
*then after that
*he kup our phone
*then we call back
*he dowan pickup
*then right
*we go call
*then the moment joshua hear zihao's voice
*he go screamn
*SUPER LOUD
*LOL
*then kakin kup
*wa dam funny i tell you
*LOL
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*why i go there will emo sia? Haha. LMAO! Your all really jokers sia! Haha. DAMN FUNNY. I read liaos laugh non stop! Haha
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*cause @ there we must be super quiet.
*lollol
*if you there right
*you will laugh even harder
*somemore right
*we want put on speaker
*but either way
*we talk SUPER loud
*all disiao him
*then mr teh and ms lee
*act like they never hear us
*LOL
*really dam funny LOL
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*Your ah. Heng i leave school early!
*haha
*if not i also die!\
*haha
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*LOL
*that zihao
*retardedlah
*we drive pass him
*all wave @ him
*he cant see
*he still look @ the bus drive past somemore
*idiot sia
*LOL
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*maybe he see but act nvr see?
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*choose this kind of time leave sch
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*scarely he see liaos still wave
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*LOL
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*EPIC sia
*haha
Daryl <3 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*LOL
*if wave
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*Yeah
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*more funny
*LOL
*if wave i think will kenna 2 weeks
*LOL
♥Amanda'Effervescence ♥3E'10; Clique'AKJS;我答应你，永远在你身边，永不分离♥ says:
*must smart 12plus go marhs
Daryl 3E'10, yellowcard, secondhand serenade, camp, sista(s), and finally, 我不配 ''Dance to express, not impress'' says:
*dam farney lah

ZI HAO EPIC!

2010-03-04T17:50:00.002+08:00

{I want us to be like this forever, Baby}

Now just reached home.
Met with Jun Chuan just now to slack.
I really damn sian until go find him lo.
Who ask him school across the road from my house?
Haha.

Talked alot alot.
Met new friends too:)
Haha.

Yesterday stayed back after paper to study with JingXiang:)
Yayness ttm:)
Haha.
Then pei-ed him to his Grade 6 piano exam.
He super nervous sia.
He nervous until can't even talk properly lo.
Haha.

Then something bad happened last night.
And it made me sleepless the whole night :(
Haiz.
Life is hard!:(

And I'm happy for my maths exam today:)
If not for the last question my answer different from everybody, which I think I wrong.
I might have the chance of getting like full marks or minus 1 or 2 marks :(

Haha.
Sec4 chem paper was hard!
Random!

LOL.
I'm like super weird now.
Don't want go Parliament House tomorrow sia.
I think I go out with Eve:)
Cause Kar Ying and Jia Ying pang sei me and Suha :(
Owell, I miss hanging out with them!
:(

And sat is JAMMING JAMMING:)
WHOOTS!! :)
AWESOME TTM!!:)

2010-03-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

This post dedicated to my most awesomest friend on the world!:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZENAS LIM!♥

Thank you Zenas:)
For being there when I need you:)
For making me smile:)
For encouraging me and picking me up from my fall:)
For always reminding me that God will always be there for me:)
For praying with and for me:)
For being so encouraging not only to me but the whole CG too:)

Though you always act funny, making people laugh, but you have a lot of wisdom hidden underneath your cute head!! :)
Every time I'm down and I talk to you, you always give me advice that encourages me and cheer me up :)
Every time we play basketball or play pool together, you never fail to make sure I had fun :)
When I'm sad and I don't tell you, you can always tell and come and find me and talk to me :)
When I post something sad or discouraging, you'll make me feel so so so much better :)
You take the initiative to come and find out my problems and make me feel so much better after letting it all out!:)

Without you, life would have been different for me!:)
I'm so glad I came to know you:)

When I first met you, I thought you were the super quiet type.
But as I got to know you better, you became a very noisy person.
You can say our personalities just clicked and we could talk about anything!

I still remember the times you always:
1: Tickle me!
2: Step on my slipper on purpose!
3: Take my phone away!
4: Remove my clip from my hair!
5: Poke me!
6: Borrow my pen!
7: Used to spam me messages!
8: Telling me lame jokes!
9: Giving me headache with all the detective solving stories!
10: Randomly saying HI to me!
11: Laughing at me!

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZENAS LIM!♥

2010-03-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

I walk this empty street on the boulevard of broken dreams,

where the city sleeps and I'm the only one and I walk alone.

2010-02-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

Life's tough.
Problems here, Problems there.

I hate chinese.
I was beginning to like chinese.
Then the cher like that.
I totally no mood do chinese le lo.

But still I'm struggling now to finish physics, history and stupid chinese.
I whole weekend doing chinese.
Totally neglected every other subject thanks to YangMehMeh.

You really know how to make me feel so much better.
Higher chinese sia.
You continue like that I really will drop and make you happy.
And so I will be happy also.

I really very very tired le.
Studying now is such a chore.
The more I study the more I get sick.

If this goes on, I really can't take it.
I really will break down.
I will collapse one day and show you.
I really will die one day because of the tremendous stress.
As I'm typing, I'm already crying.

I hate it.
I hate being that one person where everybody expects so much and I have to meet everybody's expectations.
And when I can't meet them, you guys will be disappointed.
Then what the hell you want me to do?
I already tried my best.
Try and understand larhs.

I'm so tired.
Really.
Physically,mentally and spiritually.
If one day I will collapse,I won't pick myself up anymore.
I will just let it be and give up.

2010-02-26T21:35:00.002+08:00

This is a post DEDICATED to that VERY SPECIAL teacher:

What right you have to call us out and ask us drop HMT?
So what if our chinese is weaker than the rest?
You can just encourage or ask us do better right?
What right do you have to ask us to drop without even talking to us one by one personally?

Your job is to teach and ensure we do well.
Not come here and anyhow ask us drop to express chinese just because we do worse than the rest?
You scared our results will make you no bonus get is it?
Stupid sia.

You look down on us somemore larhs.
I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG!
I WILL DO DOUBLY HARD FOR THIS COMMON TEST!
I WILL SHOW YOU THAT YOU CAN'T MAKE US DROP JUST LIKE THAT!

Want me write letter?
Wait long long I tell you.
You go hear my mum scold you like shit first then you decide want come find me for your stupid letter anot!

:(

2010-02-25T22:24:00.002+08:00

Gawd.
Relationships really tires one out man!
:(
BOO!

Anyways, today English CT.
Damn sad.
The passage was freaking hard to understand!
Let alone do the questions larhs!!
:(

Damn awesome la Ms Yong.
Set so hard paper.
Even Band 1 people finds it freaking hard!
Except for ETHAN DE JONG! :)

ByeBye

2010-02-23T23:28:00.001+08:00

It's over.
One chance was enough and you blew it.

2010-02-22T20:01:00.002+08:00

Went ION on sat and sun :)
So fun:)

Saturday:
Went ION and ate at a Japanese place called Tonkatsu Ginza Bairin:)
Had special katsudon.
Gawd.
It's awesome :)
Then I head to MUJI and ArtBox :)
Bought stationery and snacks :)
Awesome ttm :)
And a pencil box from ArtBox :)
Awesome Awesome :)

Sunday:
ION again:)
But this time to eat only because I was nearby :)
Went to Titanium after that to look at disc:)
Saw a MediaCorp artiste but don't know who so NOT famous at all lo.
Haha.

Today:
Brought the Strawberry Marshmallow to class I bought from MUJI :)
5 for $8.80!
Cheap Cheap:)

Then Wu Ping and Darsicius ate like loads :)
Haha.
They call it Mothballs!
LOLs.
Then in the morning there was a moth flying around the class.
AWESOME :)
And Kai Wei IS SCARED! :P
Then I open my chemistry file and found a lizard! -.-
Then Calvin caught it :)

And I had CCA :)
Had a trainer call Mr Kenneth :)
Super funny :)
I miss CCA now :(

Common test this thurs :(
JIAYOUS EVERYONE!! :)

Leave me alone..

2010-02-21T17:15:00.005+08:00

You are just my...
Why care like I've known you for so long?
Like I'm so close to you?
Like we have a special relationship.

I let go lerhs.
Everything was going back to square one but then now it's the same again.
Thanks to you.

breaking down

2010-02-20T17:33:00.003+08:00

{I Love You Baby}

Now quite sad cause of something.
But I can't do anything.
It was my choice.
Oh well, I can only accept it what.
So yeah, Live with it Amanda! :)

Suddenly flipped through my old memory card and heard this song and I cried.
Long time since I cried okays.
I still remember the last time I really cried was 21st December.
So yeah.
The lyrics struck me as all the old and new memories flood my head.
Especially the part I made it pink.
Struck me super deep.
It kinda stabbed my heart like that.
That kind of feeling.
And now every time I hear that song, I still cry.

下雨天-南拳妈妈
下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

2010-02-19T15:22:00.005+08:00

{ Credits to Kpopped }
{I want you to spend more time with me}

Updating now.
Yesterday home-ed with Wu Ping and Joey :)
Talked and crapped the whole way larhs :)
Then went home and chiong Jian Bao.
Stupid lo.
Chiong til like 12plus?
Then no time do english and chemistry homework :(

Owell.
Then today home-ed with Jia Ying and Kar Ying :)
Saw Hong Kai, Sophia, Yuan Ting, Jasmine and Han Wei :)
Took same bus :)

So much work to do over the weekend larhs.
~~Bugis on Sunday :)~~ Cancelled.

And I almost cause the house to get on fire!
Cause the charger for the laptop spoil liaos.
The wire came out of the insulator thingy to keep it dry derhs.
Then i force the thing to charge my laptop.
Then sparks came out of the wire and heng I faster use magazine whack lo.
If not comfirm dio fire derhs.
Gawd.
Thank God I'm alive!
My face was at the wire there.
Like 5 cm away only!
Now still traumatised a bit.

Lols.
I really want go Bugis!!
Pray hard YOU don't pang sei me again.
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To JJS: Want talk about me talk behind my back larhs. Says something bad about mi. In front of me somemore. Think I never hear meh? Stupid sia.
To OKY:
Yousaywillspendtimewithmederhs.butintheenddidyoudidyou?
youdidnt.youalwayslikethatderhs.thenmorningthesunhaventriseshemsgyoulerhs.
spamyouwithmorningsomemore.didyouknowhowifeel?beingbesideyouwhenyoureceivethatmsg.
youwontknow.causeidontdothattoyou.whydoyouhavetodothistome?
thenafterschoolcomefindmefor5minsalsocantmeh?even1minialsohappylelo.
thenyougot1hourbreaktoeatnotenoughmeh?
fromthestartfriendshasalwaysbeenmoreimptthanme.
whywhywhy?
amijustnotthatimptforyoutowanttospendtimewithme?
ifyouthink30mininthemorningwithyoubusyusingyourphoneandspendingtimewithmeisenoughthenyouarewrong.
iwillhateyouforthat.fornotwantingtomakeaneffortandspendtimewithme.
askyoupeimi5minsalsohardlerhs.
thenwhatforitryandmaketimeforyou?

PECK SHAO XIANG!♥

2010-02-17T22:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PECK SHAO XIANG!♥

You 15 lerhs!
One more year to NC16 movies.
Jiayous :)

Laopa,
You always help me with my troubles.
You always give me goodies eat.
You always prank me with your finger.
You always do things that i least expect and make me smile.
Thank you for being there for me :)
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You really very hard to understand.
Every time I think I finally understand you, you'll show me another part of you.
And make me confuse.
But you are very nice :)
Since the day I knew you:)
Thanks to Irfan and Zhen Yu :)

Since the day I knew you, I know we won't just have a simple friendship.
I knew it will bring us somewhere one day and here we are :)
Nv Er and Lao Pa :)
Thanks again :)
For giving me advice when I'm troubled.
For giving me comfort when I'm down.
For making me smile when I'm sad.
For asking if I'm okay when I'm frowning
For randomly smsing me and chatting with me.
You really know how to make someone's day :)
Thanks :)

And lastly and most importantly,
I Love You Loads♥

2010-02-16T16:46:00.003+08:00

{ Our love will never fade. Never }

WhooHoo.

School's finally starting again tomorrow :)
I think I'm like the only one that is so happy about it.

Morning went to meet JingXiang at about 9 near his house.
Then slacked :)
Til about 11.30 :)

And then something happened.
So I left and started pouring everything at Marcus via sms.
Then he ask whether need him come anot.
Then I say meet him at causeway lo.

Expected him to reach at about 12.30pm
But he reached at like 1.30 pm!
Like WTH?

Then we went to popular.
Like FINALLY :)
Then I bought the color paper I need and we went to look at notebooks.
I was awed at so many nice notebooks and I bought one in the end :)
It's super nice :)
Hehe.

Then I came home after that to attend a party at my house.
With all my mum's CG people larhs.
So noisy.

Drank red wine :)
Felt so much better after gulping it down my throat :)

And now I'm going to do my homework:)
After so long, I'm doing it :)
Hehe.

I LOVE YOU.

2010-02-15T17:47:00.003+08:00

I want our love to be like this.
Locked with each other forever, never letting go.
Because you mean the whole world to me.
And I want you to know I love you.

And I will wait for that day.
When you are willing to give your all.
And make me your priority.
I will wait for the day when you would spent your time with me.
Where we would laugh and smile at each other.
Just enjoying each others presence.
Even if it means sitting there quietly, starring at each other.

When that day comes, I will be truly happy and contented.
Because that's the day I know that you will keep you promise.
Your promise to hold on forever and never let go.
Even after death.

When I'm next to you, I feel secure.
That even if the whole world collapses on me, you'll be there to hold on to me.
When I see your smile, I can feel your happiness.
You are easily contented with what you have:)

But with me?
Is it the same?
Will I ever be a priority in your life?
Will you sacrifice your time just to be with me?
I still don't know the answers to those questions and I think I never will get the answers.

Being with you, I'm happy :)
Because I know you're there to cheer me up when down.
I know you will always be there to spur me on when I'm discouraged.
I know you will always be there to dry my tears when I cry.
I know you will always be there to lend me your shoulder when I need it.
Be it for comfort or just assurance that you will always be there for me.

Just know that one thing will never change.
And that is my love for you:)

I love you:)

HAPPY CNY AND VALENTINES :)

2010-02-14T11:38:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year and Valentines :)
I hate it when it falls on the same day!
LOL.

Can't it not be on the same day?
And I want to spend every valentines with you too :)

2010-02-13T19:57:00.002+08:00

Had CG just now at 2pm :)
Effervescence the only ones in church :)
Literally the ONLY ONES!
So awesome :)

Then had a mini debate session
Then Shawn came late.
So he was carrying a IPod Touch.Which I thought was IPhone.
Then what amazed me was what he took out next.
A PINK LG LOLLIPOP!
Gawd.Refer to the above picture.
That phone is awesomely chio :)
Though LG Chocolate BL20V is chioer :)
Haha.

I was playing with it while messages from A-Hem kept coming in.
LOL.
He's just plain rich larhs.
Change to Lollipop so fast!

Okays.
On a super random note.
Everybody that reads to this part of this post click this URL now :)
CLICK HERE!!
And just tag and read on this blog :)
Thanks loads :)

2010-02-13T10:49:00.001+08:00

Okays.
Updating now!

Yesterday had CNY celebrations in school.
Sat with Wei Ling, Hong Kai, Hui Jie, Wu Ping :)
Was super high!
Kept clapping and going LEFT, RIGHT, LEFT, RIGHT.
And the clapping only me, Hong Kai and Hui Jie clapping!
This is called "want-to-attract-attention-badly syndrome :)

Then finished at 11.30 went to find Zi Tong :)
Went Limbang buy my usual Honey Red Tea while she bought her usual Oreo Crush.
Then we bus-ed to Lot1 and wanted to have lunch.
But we walk walk then no appetite for lunch lerhs.
Then we walked to the M1 shop at basement.
Then I saw this damn chio phone!
The pink one is uber chio though i like purple but the shade of the purple one just sucks!
But it's LG!
I hate LG.
Photos are here.
Take a look and agree:)

The pink one is just uber uber chio!! :)
So we just slacked and went to library.

Met up with Jaswin at library :)
Then we met up with Zheng Jie and Terence at CCK Lrt.
And we all Lrt-ed together :)
Terence left at Bukit Panjang and Zheng Jie left at Jelepang.
So got the 3 of us again.

Talked and crapped like nobody's business!
:)
Then we left at Pending and go back to Bukit Panjang Primary! :)
So happy :)
Zi Tong became an ex-student of BPPS yest for that few hours only!
Then saw Aaron Leow(RI), Brian Leow(Beatty Sec), Ivan Pang(RI), Shu Heng(West Spring), Upendira(Swiss Cottage), Yong Ming(Swiss Cottage), Kuan Yiou(Swiss Cottage), Benedict Lui(Nan Hua), Pang Chu Kien(Nan Hua), Timothy Lim(Not sure) and a few more. :)
Yesterday was so fun :)
Like mini-reunion :)

2010-02-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

Didn't go school today because I'm sick :(
Finally got time to update :)
These are all overdued photos.
Some even from mid january!:)
Yesterday home-ed with Isaac :)
Got to know him better :)
He's a really nice guy :)

Me and Ming Jie.

Me and Leon "No Money"!

Zenas and Me :) the picture so nice larhs :)

Me and Wei Ling.

Me ad Wei Ling.

Me and Wei Ling.

Sunglasses! :)

Me wearing Marcus specs! and Venus too :) Laopo :)

Zenas eating the Hazelnut Truffle which tasted like fererro rocher larhs.

Aww..So sad..

Me and Venus Laopo and Dana :)

Me and Dana :)

Laopo posing with LaoGong:)

Super Nice! Made with two lightsticks only! :)

Me and Marcus :)

Colored version :)

The rose Luke gave me at the Valentines Day event :) Haha. Two years ago he gave me sunflower :)

Me and Marcus in the lift :)

Me and Germaine! Haha.

Me, myself and I :)

Me and Zenas :)

Me and Deborah :)

Me and Benedick korh korh :)

Me and David!!

David and Patrizha "fighting"!

David with Germaine!

Germaine! Acting Young!

Me, Jun Chuan, Patrizha and David :)

Me and Benedick korh again :)

Me, Jun Chuan and Patrizha :)

Me and Hippo Twiiniie:)

Me and Wei Ling spammage of photos after camp which i said will post! So here it is! :)

Darsicius Pencil Case! Madness cuteness!

A: You have an attitude nobody can stand. I'm surprise people want to be good friends with you. I must say they have very very very good temper to tolerate you attitude sia. Even I have to agree with S and J now. I thought you were a better person. I was beginning to treat you better. Guess you proved me wrong. Whatever S said was true, S was right to give up in the end and not give in to someone like you. To think I asked S to give you one more chance.

Q: Our relationship is drifting because of one thing you don't know. You probably didn't realise I already know and still treat me as your best friend. I'm sorry. It's just it'll never be the same ever again.

Camp Photos:)

2010-02-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

Camp photos!
Mr Teh burnt the photos into a disc and gave it to index no. 1,11,31 and 41:)
Awesome:)
Haha.
There's like 513 photos and 1 video so you can't expect me to upload all!
If you want you can go to facebook and view ALL the photos and the video:)

So I shall not talk about in details since like everybody already did! Haha.

Camp was awesome!
Miss camp now after looking at all the photos and especially the video.
The video shows all the nice and memorable and epic photos!
With a soothing song!
Makes me want to tear! :'(

Owell, talking about happy stuff.
Today during CE we suppose do Camp Reflection's using the Johari's Window!
Then SUPPOSE to find 2 or 3 people to write for you!
And in the end, almost the whole class wrote for each other!
Super cool:)
It's amazing how our class bonded and so many friendships were made through that 3 days 2 nights spent together at camp:)
See how good camp is when it's so early in the year:)

3E'10 FTW!:)

[Me and ShaoXiang Daddy:) He super caring:) LOVE HIM LOADS!♥]

[They look so cute together:) Mr Teh and ShaoXiang:)]
[ShaoXiang with the Yan Dao look! Calvin you lose liaos! :P]
[Daryl pal!:) That look is just awesome!]

[ShaoXiang forever is ShaoXiang! But he looks nice in this picture!]

[Jayne! She looks so cute here!:)]

[Eric, Zhe Xuan and Anta posing! I think ZhengJie don't know he's caught on camera!:P]

[ShaoXiang ah ShaoXiang! Try something new!:)]

[Darsicius with the BLUR look! He say unglam. Where got? Haha. So handsome;)]

[Anta sleeping! Guess who's the photographer!! JOANN!:)]

[This is EPIC! Haha. Ryan so extra! ZhengJie looks like he posing for some kungfu movie!]

[Back of 3E'10 Class Tee:) But seriously, I don't know who's back is this!]

[Joshua's porn dance! With clothes on of course:)]

[Shaping and Re-shaping:) Inside joke!]

[HIKE! I'm superman! TA-DA]

[Whoo Whoo!!]

Camp was just awesome:)
No words can describe camp!:)

friends are whatever

2010-02-03T21:20:00.001+08:00

Life.
Is something everybody has.
Reality.
Is something everybody faces.
Hurt.
Is something everybody experiences.
But love,
Not everybody experiences it.
Even if you have love,
It might not be a happy one.
It can be sad, happy, grateful or just pure happiness.

Friends.
When they need you, you are there for them.
When they don't need you, you are still there for them.
When they seek your help, you go all ways to help them.
When they tell you a secret, you keep it for them and never say it out.
But even when you do so much for them, they don't repay or even acknowledge it by doing the same thing.

They will backstab you, even your closest friend, the one you trust most.
When you tell them a secret, they tell the whole world about it.
When you need them, they appear to be busy.
They disappear and treat you as air after using you.
But come back and treat you like royalty when they need you again.

That's why I've learnt never to trust anyone.
Even those dearest to me.

Half a post(:

2010-02-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

Updating(:
I still got a whole loads of photos to upload but I'm gonna do half today.
So tired.
Gonna go get some sleep after I finish someone's 剪报.
LOL.

Went school today.
Okay okay lo.
Had a great time smsing Glendon(:
So long never sms him lerhs(:
Hehe.

Saturday went to the Youth Guidance Centre to do V'Day outreach event(:
So fun(:
Spammed photos(:
But shall upload tmr(:

Me and Benedick Korh(:

Jun Chuan, Me and Patrizha(:

PATRIZHA!!

Me and Patrizha(:

Hippo Twiiniie

Photos with SheronQuckWeiLing:D

Darsicius supherb cute pencil case(:

3E!!

2010-01-30T08:47:00.000+08:00

Just back from camp!

Know you guys got miss me derhs.
Hehe.

YO BABY YO BABY YO!

Miss how 3E would cheer together and act like mad people while saying that line!

3E I LOVE YOU TTM!!
:D

Will post a detailed post with pictures tmr or later barhs.
Now going back to sleep to rest.

And people just stop it alright.

罗志祥-爱疯头

2010-01-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO(:

罗志祥's new album song 爱疯头(:

This song is nice(: It's also the 主题曲 for the taiwan drama 海派甜心(:

Going camp tomorrow til friday(:

So you want msg just msg!

I will reply because I bringing phone to camp(:

Smuggling it(:

CAMP CAMP CAMP:D

2010-01-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

GAWD!
my cheeks are super red now!
:'(

Coz played bball just now from 2plus til 5plus.
under scorching sun!
Haha.
now i look like jasmine tan!
:)

so tired.
my life is so troubled.
always things ahppening to me or around me.
GAWD.
i'm moodless!
and wei ling not going school tmr :(

no mood..

2010-01-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

Today a lot of things happened.
Shall not talk about it.

Stay-ed back after school today.
With Zi Tong.
And now I really no mood post.

Haiz.
Then when tong go home lerhs I went to slacked with Jaswin and Wei Bin.
So long never talk to them lerhs.
Talk to them kinda cheer me up but now I'm still sad.
Haiz.
I shall drown myself in books and studies to forget everything and prevent myself fron breaking down.

No words can describe

2010-01-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

Updating.
Love W595 handphone ttm!
I love keypad phones(:
Hehe.

Today Joann change seat with Kai Wei then was my partner the whole day(:
So happy(:
Hehe.
Then Anta sat Darsicius seat bacause Darsicius never come(:
Then he kept providing me with Hacks and Fruit plus(:
Ty Anta(:
Hehe.

Then the back very noisy with Anta, Joann, Calvin and me(:
HoHoHo.
Had camp briefing during CE period.
Then the person say can't wear FBT but still I'm gonna bring(:
Hehe.
Bacause Mr Teh say can wear straight cut(:
So don't care(:
Hehe.

And when the sec2 and sce3 having camp.
I heard the sec4 and sec5 having Adam Khoo workshops.
Then I chua dio when I knew what time til what time.
From 7am til 9pm!
Crash course sia.
LOL.

♥TODAY♥

2010-01-20T19:27:00.000+08:00

Hi(:

Today so tired.
Morning go school with so many things.
Then 1st two periods is PE.
Then I pon.
So slacked with Wei Ling♥ and Winona
Then took pictures with Wei Ling too.
Will upload some other time♥

Then had physics.
Then got group work thing.
So most likely same group as Wei Ling, Zheng Jie and Joshua(:
Hehe.

Now my body pain :'(
Going chiong A Maths and Physics and Chemistry lerhs!♥

Show(:

2010-01-18T17:27:00.000+08:00

So darn happy now(:
Hehe.
Bought LUO SHENG MEN today(:
Hehe.
Thanks to suha(:
Coz like i no money lerhs.
Then she pay for me first with the ATM card(:
Hehe.
HAPPY HAPPY(:
THANKS TO SUHA LOADS!
love her ttm(:

AND AND AND shao xiang is an idiot :P
(inside joke)
HEHE.

Ben & Jerry's at Dempsey Hill

2010-01-17T11:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday met Patrizha at 12plus.
Then we met Brandon and Jun Chuan and headed to church together.

It was okay.
yesterday got a bit of confilct.
Oh well.

Then for dinner want to Causeway eat.
Then headed to Ben & Jerry's at Dempsey Hill.
Got live singer.
Nice x1000:)

Then headed home lerhs.

Now kinda emotional so not gonna elaborate so much.
Shall post the pictures when I get them from Lydia.
Ciao!

[edited at 10:22pm]
Well, went to Whoampoa to eat fish head steamboat for dinner!
Yummy Yummy(:

Well, i'm like super confused now.
So yeah.
I'm troubled.
Haiz.

And I miss 2C'09 and 3E'10.
:)

SHINee

2010-01-16T10:07:00.000+08:00

SHINee!! New album! Bought it a week ago when I saw it at HMV Citylink.
OMG!! Then songs are supherb larhs(:
Love SHINee to the max(:

( Pictures inside the album )

( Kinda the back page of the album )

( Pictures from inside )

( And my love, CHOI MIN HO! )

These few days made me realise how great 3E'10 is(:

They rock(:

Especially our mentors, Mr Teh and Ms Lee(:

Hehe.

3E'10 to the max!(:

Stayed back in shcool yesterday with Zi Tong and Jing Xiang(:

Then Calvin came along halfway(:

Hehe.

Coz I lazy entertain Zi Tong then she go disturb Calvin and keep laughing(:

Haha.

Super funny larhs.

Then Calvin so poor thing.

He actually spent 5mins doing 1 A Math question derhs.

But after he got Zi Tong's company then he spent like 30mins doing one question!

Haha.

So fun(:

Miss 2C loads and Clique loads! :'(

1024(:

Troubles

2010-01-10T09:16:00.000+08:00

A lot of things have happened the past week.
Be it my problems or my friend's problems.
There were so many and it's only the first week of 2010.

People say its better to let it go than keep it bottled up.
But I prefer to keep it bottled up.
I may look very open to some of you.
But actually deep down there's a lot of things only me,myself and I know.
Even if i die because there were too many things bottled up inside.
I won't feel sad or regret.
Because I know I died with all my secrets.
And to my dear friends who confided in me,
Thanks for doing that.
Though I couldn't help that much,
At least I lent a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.

So all I can say here is do what you think is best for you.
Don't regret in life because you only get to live life once.
Treasure every moment you have.
Live like you're dying.
Because you won't know what's gonna happen to you the next second.

False Memories

2010-01-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

( Credits to False Memories )

Updating(:

Today in school okay larhs.
Quite fun(:

Had A Maths(: Can't understand larhs.
Then english and chem(:
And Higher Mother Tongue(:

Love HMT lessons(:
Coz with clique(:

Then got some stupid mock test til 2plus.
Sian lorhs.
Spoil my plans -.-

Then I come home and had a really really good talk with a friend.

It taught me that in life, you can't do anything to change what you've done.
You can only face it and solve the problem.
We shouldn't apologise and blame ourselves for our problems but face it and solve it(:

Finally.

2010-01-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

HeyHey.

Finally using com.
First week of school and got a lot of homework lerhs.
But I'm beginning to love my class(:
And also my mentors(:
Mr Teh and Miss Lee(:
Hehe.
They very very nice(:

Then english teacher Ms Amy Yap again.
But happy happy(:
Coz i like her(:
Hehe.
And also coz i don't like the rest of the english teachers.
Hehe.

Today went home with Jia Ying and Suha.
Happy(:
SO long never crap with them lerhs!
Hehe.
So 难得 since they in triple science and I'm in double science :'(

And And And...
Coz i got a E Math question don't know how do.
Then I ask Suha.
She do lerhs answer different from answer key.
Then Jing Xiang also there.
Then i ask him see.
Then he say "Aiya,she correct larhs"

Then we had this conversation,
Suha: Aiyo! Your answer key wrong larhs.
Me: We same book leh.
Suha: You believe triple science student or a book?
Me: I believe sec 4 student [points at JingXiang]

And in the end,
Mr Teh did the question and both of them wrong.
So moral of this story is..
Trust your teacher!

Haha. Then we all laugh like siao sia.
Hehe.
Mass sms Patrizha,Marcus and Jing Xiang during lesson larhs.
Lols.
That's why I HAVE to bring my HP to school(:

2010-01-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

Lols.

Today second day of school.
So fun larhs.
NOT!

Damn sian sia school.
3E'10 is super quiet.
Without Joann and Joshua is like quiet like siao!
Will die man.
Then so boring.

I sitting beside Kai Wei.
Lols.
He's a quiet guy but at least he stills talk to me(:

Then today never bring HP go school.
Kinda regret lo.
Even no batt i should have brought.
Borrowed Jasmine and Wei Bin's HP just to sms someone.
Lols.

And and and... I miss the clique lots!
I miss the times we always laugh at nothing and talk about guys!
I miss the times we would spend recesses together and laugh at almost everything!
I miss the times we would all come together and played weird games at the green table!
I MISS YOU GUYS! :'(